I have not penned in, at the least,three years, seriously written that is. I have not touched this blog as well. Seemed no one read it, and that got in my ego way. Today, and… More
I want to write about bulldozers and teepees. I want to write about muddy fields, and blocked roads, and humvees, and police in full attack gear on the rise. I want to write about this like it wa…
Source: “February Heat”
I want to write about bulldozers and teepees. I want to write about muddy fields, and blocked roads, and humvees, and police in full attack gear on the rise. I want to write about this like it was a bad dream I had last night. I want to make it surreal so when the reader brings it to life, they just cannot phantom that this could ever happen in the world they live in.
But, indeed it can.
In all my wildest dreams, and with all the conspiracy theories I have in my head, never did I ever dream I would witness yesterday. I walked around in full grief mode all day, my blood was curdling I swear. Louis Riel was rolling over in his grave.
South Dakota cried.
I arose to a dull grey day in Ontario. In February. The temperatures been so erratic this year, I am not sure what continent I am on at times. Creator is blessing us with tears today.
Sarnia is on fire, just moments away from boom.
The only birds I hear as I give thanks for the day and pray for nibi, are crows.
This ‘lil turtle is finding it hard to smile of late.
It seems that we are going at such a fast pace that we are simply spinning to stand still.
I love trees. I find solace in the bush. I am simply frightened silly of the madman in the white house down there. I refuse to give the idiot the pleasure of having me type out his name because the bottom line is this…there is a whole movement behind him. I think that is the thing to be aware of and have knowledge of and run for the hills from.
Ah, but I digress, see. I wanted to write about teepees and bulldozers, but it seems to be all tied into the end. I strive for happy on a daily basis and look for love and only see it in cats and dogs and the world’s gone mad I say.
There is no sense in this writing. It’s just words thrown together that simply came at me in a time when grief seems to be heading my way. The rain will wash the pain away.
I am bush bound.
Build a village with a language that only speaks from hearts that see that truth is only found in the wonder of the water, and the bush.
I don’t know much, but I do know this. I want to go Home. To heart. To me. To free.
“Merci/Thank You/Miigwetch to each and everyone one of you who have been on this journey with me…guiding me…reteaching me to live…loving me when I couldn’t…each and every one of you matter and have touched me in ways beyond my wildest dreams…and life is an adventure… I would not want to be on without all of you…its been a challenging six years…its been an awesome six years…its been filled with laughter and tears and hope and joy and sadness…I have lost friends…I have lost family…but I have gained me…and a truth that is so raw it humbles me…i look at each new day and i think of those who gave up before the miracle and I think how blessed am I…why was I chosen…and the why does no longer matter…i am here…this is my path and Creator wants me on it…so lead me…take me…do what you will with me…the reality is this folks…you are the miracle and you are happening right here and now…that is the miracle…its happened to you…so wake up and enjoy…you can live your days in misery and stay stuck in mud and keep on whining but your never gonna get out of the mud…Creator has given you ever darn tool you need to fix you…pick them up…have no fear of the what ifs…the what ifs do not matter…have faith…do you think that Creator put you here for misery…Creator only sees love..only wants good…only makes good…we trash all…stomp on all…and ruin lives because of our inability to love ourselves and then give that away…if i have learnt one thing in the past six years it is this…if you do not want to help yourself…if you don’t see you own worth…if that is not the focal point in your road to happy…then get off the bus…coz the buss only functions with the love of self that will help you throw off the old coat, put on a new one, and travel onto the happy road of destiny….there are lots of good souls out there willing to help you…reach out. Miigwetch.”
“I just don’t understand how anyone can get opposed or upset at the people who are setting up camp…there are over 1000 souls there to protect our Mother Earth…that is everyone’s Mother Earth eh not just the First Nations…why are people so upset that we want to protect Nibi??? It is everyone’s water and it is all the same water…so why do people get so upset when we set up camp, walk around bays, take canoes to the waters???? I think its coz we are showing their lame asses up and we help them to feel like they should be doing this too but being blinded by society and all the rest they fail to make the stand out of fear of alienation from their “peoples”…I could be wrong…it could be something totally different but i know this…this is what i fight for…this is not about me…this is about the next seven and I want there to be forest and water and life left for when i go…and i also know my ancestors didn’t do all they did to put me here today so I can just sit back and wait for someone else to stand up and do the right thing.
So criticize me all you want, roll your eyes when i speak my truths, but i am not stopping, and I will continue to walk with my ancestors as they smile upon me, and i follow spirit, and do the right thing….Stand up and be all you can be.”
“I want to build something in my backyard. A huge Stanley Peltier tee-pee that will attract all. Bring in elders. Have fires. Talk till dawn. Bring in the youth. Sit down, and chat. Take them out, to the bush, with friends, on excursions to explorer souls.
Embrace the language teachers. Bring them in. Have lessons. Network with others who are building canoes, teaching songs, learning drums.
I want to come home to soul, and I want to share that with all. I want smiles and laughter and I am just so tired of all this gloom and doom.
I can not do this alone, nor do I want to, nor am I suppose to. This is my simple call out to all who may read this ( all be it I think far fewer do then I think and I think only 2 do).
If you feel a pull, or a tug, or you see something here and ya wanna jump on. I have the yard. I have wood to build stuff with. I have no teepee yet. I have Stan as friend/elder/teacher though!!!!! If I gave sema…ya just never know. I am nothing but full of hope. I also have fine spot for tree fort, but i have sister Stacey in charge of that.
I am just a dreamer, but I see where we are headed and it’s just not good. I see the lost looks in eyes, we need more then technology. This stuff is leaving us hollow and sidelined by life.
Heal the Earth. Clean the Water. Learn your Mother Tongue. Be whole. Come on folks. I sound like a tired old John Lennon song, and I just don’t care.
Nothing’s going right, so let’s go left. Right off grid…and let’s prepare and plan and let’s start with a base…a place to meet and charge up…let’s build it in my backyard!!!”
Here I go…on the wings of eagles I shall fly…I dont know what i experienced this past week…I have tried to sit down to jot it all down, and yet English fails me. Quand je vas la,…
Here I go…on the wings of eagles I shall fly…I dont know what i experienced this past week…I have tried to sit down to jot it all down, and yet English fails me. Quand je vas la, les mot proches de mot coeur, sons toujours…francais…language is culture…we gotta learn that.I see it coz i keep have of mine but the other I need to learn, to make me whole, to help me come home in a better and bigger way, to help my people unite.
Unity…all clans come together to work as one to get the job done…the job is…healing mother earth…thereby healing us…in…Unity.
I have choose comfy over adventures, let fear slip in, and i am too awake for that right now. The torment of the twisted me returning is enough to make me rewrite the draft.
I believe the revolution is coming. i believe it will need us all with our many tools to work as one, and be community. i am taking one year to get my schooling done, secure a vehicle and a license, and then packing up me and the kitties up, and away we go for nibi.
I am thinking before jumping now. I am plan in motion cant plan the outcome and can not wait for the adventures. I thought I’d be here longer, but when one step up is two steps back, well, i have done that far to long and i hear Creator.
I am afraid, and I look beyond and see the fear is just a mask to the hope and all i need is to believe and all will be well…Abundance will fall on me. Instinct lead my way, and most of all…love guide me. I just can’t not-not hear the calling now…and a house is a house.. they stay put…most turtles I know…take there’s with them….i’m becoming my clan…miigwetch.